DO YOU FEEL A SENSE OF FEAR

 Something that struck me when I read an article on Amir Khan, Actor in today's Trivandrum Times of  Times of India.

1. He felt a sense of fear every time he embarked on something new.

This has happened to me umpteen times all my life. There are palpitations and apprehensions. It is the fear to face the unknown. I shiver from my innards. I felt that even the day before yesterday, when Evana came back from the school with a bad cough. 

I phoned the Doctor. The appointment was at 6.30pm. I knew the traffic would be pretty heavy onward and homeward.

I wondered how I'd go through that. I was dithering. But the child needed the doctor much more than my apprehensions that were weighing me down.

I went ahead. It was mayhem on the road to and fro - more than 10km one way. But once I was on the road I found the apprehensions withering . I knew I could do it. I did it.

I thought of you. I could see the forces ranged against you and backing you. Add to that your own doubts on how you could tackle the avaricious and the selfish

2. I am going back to Amir Khan. He recalls the premiere show of QSQT - Qayamat Se Qayamat Tk - in 1988. He says, 

"I remember walking into the film with no one recognising me, and when the film got over and I walked out, I was mobbed."

That day is not far off.

YOU

 When matters do not go well as you perceive or go the  wrong  way, it is time you take a break. You must take rest, sift through what went wrong and assess what changes you have to initiate.

Please be open to feedbacks.

When your peers excel in performance,  introspect whether their success  adversely impacts  you. If it does and if it depresses and pressurises you, address it at once. It is not the end of the world as everyone goes through such phases in life.

As you never would like to be left behind, visit your failures positively and force them to inspire and motivate you. 

It'll always be a healthy race.

You have to be crystal clear how you should chart your course forward. 

You need to be self reliant.  You need to brave the storm of doubts and rivalry. You have to be independent. You have to make your own decisions. You have to  overcome  alone the  hardships on your path.  

It helps you  garner strength  to deal with the travails life throws across. 

 You  grow and evolve.

REVOLUTION FOR PURIFICATION /CSI/CHURCH OF SOUTH INDIA

 The  justification for starting a revolution is evinced only if it turns out successful.

People  respect you only if the revolution works out. 

But we don't know up front what's going to happen. 

To gain strength to persevere, you need to believe that what you are doing is a noble cause.

The nicest part is that you dramatically increase the likelihood of the next revolution to succeed if you try this one.

URI LEVINE

SKD/ CSI SOUTH KERALA DIOCESE /CSI

This is an appeal to all in CSI who stand for Christ

Now think of SKD. Think of CSI as a whole.

What we need is a revolution for purification.

Please initiate it. 

Chances are you could fail as well 

But fail and fail only to succeed.

If you fail after the bid for the revolution and the total transformation, it doesn't matter. 

You are setting off the next revolution.

After all, Jesus was crucified for purging  evil from the temple at Jerusalem.

We follow Jesus. Not Satan. Nor mammon.

ONE DAY IN THE LIFE OF ABRAHAM AT KUTS

One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich

It is a short novel by the Russian writer and Nobel laureate Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn.

It's on stalinist repression in the erstwhile Soviet Union.

Abraham had  read his Cancer Ward. He couldn't get his hands on to the book referred to.

Today it popped up in Abraham's mind. Inspired, he said to himself, " Why not write on one day of Abraham at KUTS"

ONE DAY IN THE LIFE OF ABRAHAM AT KUTS

Abraham is Honorary  Treasurer, KUTS

Abraham reached the office at 9.35 sharp.  It was 25 minutes late by his standards. The library archivist followed him at the steps. He went up slowly to enable the library archivist mark the attendance. He left the office at 1.30 pm for lunch. He has it at home. These days the workload had been heavy as his assistant was convalescing after Open Heart Surgery. In the general run it had kept him glued to his seat till 2 pm or 2.30pm. He was happy there was a lighter day after three weeks of hectic activity.

As he was settling down on his seat in the morning, the Principal brought Rs.1500 collected by Jaya the previous day. It was promptly accounted. Thinking it was a light day Abraham started reading Uri Levine. One folio and the peace was broken. Mohanan brought a cup of tea. One after the other work kept on arriving. There was an advance to settle. It was done. Mohanan wanted another advance. Abraham called for data on loans outstanding against Mohanan. The acquittance was verified. There were more to be collated. Someone wanted assistance from charity. He fended them off. Not that he was heartless, he couldn't attempt that without proper assistance. The remittances kept on coming in. There were meetings with the Principal. There were cheques to be issued. There was a cheque to be deposited at Indian Bank. Mohanan was sent for that. Manoj was asked to stand in.

Pradeep did a few cash collections. Those had to be accounted. These days Pradeep had been doubling or tribling up. Nothing would have worked if he hadn't done that.

There was disruptive grinding noise. It was deafening. Looked up at what was happening on the terrace.

Another advance had to be disbursed. Done. There were a few cash payments. There were three drafts typed by Pradeep. One needed a few more insertions. Finished drafts went up for approval. 

The fogging man stepped in for his wages. Paid. He spoke of occasional chest pain. Abraham listened patiently and advised him to visit the Cardiology OP at the Medical College Hospital.

There was not a dull moment. At 1pm Manoj wanted to go back to the Library to have lunch along with the librarians. Abraham told him to wait and help out in closing the cash. Once it was over he let Manoj go.

Made a few phone calls for KUTS and finally left for home at 1.30 pm. 

At home, as soon as the lunch was over, he went up to verify the balance in the KUTS a/c and it was conveyed to the Principal.

It was a light day. But at times work balloons. 

The key word is never lose calm. Go on with the  work  one after the other and get off.

SHINING BRIGHT

SHINING BRIGHT

 

 

WRITER WRITES HOW TO WRITE

I can write on what I do

When I have an idea, I build on that in mind first.

Then I start to pen.

Once I conclude, I leave it there for a day or two. 

Then I work on it. At times it is even overhauled in its entirety.

I visualise the reader. To me what I create is always excellent. But I think of the one who peruses it. If it doesn't appeal to him the creation is below par. If I get that inkling, I work on it. 

No one likes repetition. I strive to avoid that as much as possible. 

At times I let Lila have a look at it. I watch for her facial expressions as she goes through it - critique by the finest critic. Then I listen to her.

Based on her reaction I work on it again. 

At last it sees the light of the day.

It doesn't matter if it is long or short.  It has to convey. It must challenge the intellect of the reader.

I keep in mind what I am presenting is not to glorify myself but is for the reader to grasp. The reader creates the writer in me.

There shouldn't be any disconnect in what I present. My sentences should be crisp, short and simple.  I can interject high calibre words, but I should align with the central theme.

I try to ensure I revolve around the theme. Digressions are essential at times. But I shouldn't flood my presentation with them.

Unless I am on my own autobiography I should never launch myself in what I offer.

I think this is too long. But I was conveying my own philosophy.

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